the sour in my heart and bitter in my mouth increase in intensity and the darkness around me becomes empty when i reach out the cold is deathly and damp the magic inside the spark of love the spark of romance the spark of life has been snuffed out can you smell the smoke? how … More sour in my heart
i go out or my way and it does no good running in circles not doing the thing i know i should i need to tell to share these doubts that stare at me from a pool on the floor of unwarranted shouts i cover my ears i cover my eyes hold away the guilt … More cover
overlooking the river of death from the cliff of dreamlessness as the winds of despair wrack my broken naked body with agony of defeat i prepare to dive. the judges await my final performance belief in life has all diminished with the colors of the coming moon i breathe in black and white, mostly black … More emotional personification
and then he wrote “so the sun has set once more, and long after, I sit alone like before writing endless prose. it will all make sense one day I suppose. and tonight I forgot to check the sky. but no tears will fall from my eye. it just seems bazaar to try to cry. … More and then he wrote
(written summer of 1990 – inspired by Anne Rice’s vampire novels) lick your canine teeth in the darkness of your piety and your cloak disintegrates rotting my heart with it the blood on your lips sprays laughs at my persona and cobwebs and darkness inside you encompass me and i shiver and freeze a hundred … More the malady of mortality
nightlight with piano attuned representations of misconceptions assumptions and judgements crescendo of emotions jumping off walls pouncing composer, director, and musician taboo scales play back and forth here in this house the individual rules with misunderstandings of another’s drummer almost intentionally instrumentations of ignorance lyrics of inexperience half measures of surface notions accents of inconsideration … More ill-composed melody
my mind escapes taking my heart with it in a blood-curdling scream my emotion is splattered across a white wall and i go down gasping for seventeen seconds more while someone somewhere is thinking if me in disgust now i slit my throat on my own tears as i open the horizon of my soul … More my mind escapes
let the darkness embrace me warm me love me wrap my naked soul in death … More let the darkness embrace me
don’t pray for me don’t pray for me don’t touch me here and now i look around all eyes on me don’t pray for me now i’m dirtier than you can see your heavy eyes see through me but I’m dirtier than you can see don’t pray for me now you wear the label ‘family’ … More don’t pray for me
sunlight seeps in through the blinds to light the room. time drags by causing the day to be so long. loneliness acts as lead weights on my eyelids boredom sets in like a virus to make me sick fatigue creeps up and attacks me from behind sleep it fights sunlight it resets time it relieves … More sleep
echoes in the darkness 